Fight laziness..

.. but apparently I failed.

Finally, all my spiders have grown big and left. Time for a short update. First up, Happy 22nd birthday Judy, age is catching up fast and so does wrinkles.

Many things happened within this short period of time, its the end of the work year whereby a new beginning is forging ahead. I'm "invited" to some regulars/officers work discussion @ NSRCC. It's totally a waste of my time, I'm neither an officer nor a regular, so why should I go? The bad thing is my 3days off are being canceled due to this. I cant help it but to complain - I detest the army. Friday went to sentosa with my battery for some cohesion activities, it was fun but the sun was scorching hot. Many of us were boiled crabs after that, and whats the best? The pain starts the following day, especially my back and my shoulders. I couldn't really sleep well recently due to the pain.

Went to some railway track around Bukit Timah yday with Siewkoon and Ziqing. Haven't seen her in such a long time, forever busy if not she's sick then cannot meet up, but im really glad that we met up yesterday. We went photo taking all over the place, totally fun and enjoyable. these are some of the photographs that i took.

Haunted appartment


Waiting for something to happen

"Feel the rain on your skin"

Skeleton of the haunted railway


Never ending railway

Challenging the never ending railway.

Codename 772.7


The three of us, with a closing shot.

That's about it, the rest you can see it in my fb profile.









You will continue to live well, you will not die. Endure through this times of difficult period and you'll see yourself picking up again. Promise me, don't give up on yourself.

in pain.

Finally I'm back home to rest for a little while before going back to the dreaded place. With a fractured finger, why don't they give me MC instead? God knows why, but nonetheless I still feel pain. Right, always hating army, I, can't change my thoughts towards it. Perhaps I should stay less pessimistic, but can I?

I really wanted to stay happy, a person without trouble like before - always smiling, always jovial. Unlike now, full of deception, always hiding and telling myself it's going to be over although the end is far from near.


Maybe I need to do something to get my adrenaline pumping, to keep myself awake. Maybe I should consider getting a Class 2B licence. Hmmm ....



Emotion - the greatest weakness of mankind.

hellbent

... Mom, I need a psychiatrist ... hahahaha

bent on destruction

As nightfall came, my heart sunk like the titanic. As it was about time, to really go inside. I really wished for something to make me happy, perhaps the death of a certain body. I may be evil, I may be bad, but you'd better escape with everything you've had. The presence of you makes everyone irritated, get lost before I get agitated.

I really hate that feeling when people only find you when they're in need and shoved you off thereafter. Just what in the flying fuck is wrong with the world!? And as many people would think, " Just what the fuck is your problem?! "
Let's just stick with the "Nothing's wrong with the world" label. This is such a sad globe waiting to be crushed by meteorites.

And one final question (maybe for the day), why do Shinzapure gahment likes sending boys to a compulsory acting organization. Are we going to work in the Media/Entertaining sector when we grow up to work in society next time?

Flowers for the dead.

I might grow up to be a psychopath the next time. Who knows? Hahahahaha.
My blue and blurry, just when/where can I find you?

now, tell me why does it always rain at the wrong time?

The cold wind blows into the room which I'm in, making my stomach feel funny. For the past few days it has been raining cows and chickens, spoils the day, utterly. I'm feeling so depressed, 'holiday' is coming to an end and I need to book in AGAIN, perhaps the weather plays a minor part in it too.

Things happened during this period of time, but I couldn't remember what exactly happened. Blame it on my failing memory. The only thing I can remember vividly is the day I went to HortPark. Why? Cos I took pictures.






Somehow I feel that I've turned really evil, saying mean things and such. But how come I don't feel any sympathy for the world anymore. And before I publish this post, to the fucking "Charles" in our camp, middle finger to you. I hope your car blows up and I swear I wun feel any pain and I'll be really glad.

Friday the 13th. well .. abit late though

Today is(not) friday the 13th. According to many others, this is also known as a "Black Friday" which obviously isn't the case. Look at the sky, the birds and everything around you. Everything looks exceptionally beautiful today, especially my mood. Not because it's my birthday, but it's because this day brings a sudden luck to me. You could say I'm blessed, by who I do not know.

Before I go on any further, I wanna thank these certain people. My sleeping beauty zombuddy, Siewkoon, for playing cheat and wishing me first cos she's an hour earlier and insisting that she's correct. Skinnyboo (FOR THE MONTH OF FEBRUARY ONLY!), for the first person I see to actually wish me a happy birthday plus the lovely photo frame, you know it's exceptionally useful to me now. Jasmine eng, for accompanying me for lunch at my favourite chinese restaurant crystal jade @ J8. Yingjia, Lina, Huimin, Yongming, Jiahao, Jinkiat, Minglong, Bernard, Mingching for the suprise gift - a holga camera. Wanted to get one, but because I wanted the polaroid more so I didn't really give a thought to it and the next moment, a holga, a wise choice!
Jane for your lovely big card and your present which I can't really accept till now. Kristie, Daryl, Shuejun, Sharon, Edric, Junjie, Jason(?), Selina, Ziqing, (who else did I leave out) thanks for the polaroid camera. For now I have 3 lovely cameras at home for me to play with.

I enjoyed myself during the 13th & 14th. Thanks. It wasnt some grand birthday celebration but to me that's good enough. I think parties are for the rich and people with nothing better to do, for birthdays are just another simple day which we lived in. To prepare something so grand you need preparation and attendance. Without the correct amount of people for parties, you'll just feel that your birthday party suck 'cos there's not enough people to fill up the seats! Life is actually very simple if you don't expect too much. BUT you must definately have standards! Right? (you know who you are, hahahaha)

Alright some common updates, I don't have a valentine for me to celebrate with. No flowers, no bears only chocolates which I don't eat from selina. HAHA! I've bought "My sassy girl chun-hyang" today, and I think my sisters have a copy already. And the best of all I have finally, cleared all my debts!!!! Hahaha, maybe I'm feeling rich. Sorry guys for taking so long to clear it.

Special thanks to these people for wishing me a very good happy birthday then : Fangfang!(meifang), Alicia, Xiaoting, Natalie, Grace, Jasmine Soh, Yanmei, Vivian, Xiaoting from my painting class, Shyi dong, Daphne, Lionel, Celine, Chiongwei (and also thanks for swapping duty with me although it was ultimately cancelled), Cheehui, Amber, Elson and so on and so forth cos I know they wished me thru FB.

Pictures can be found on FB, as usual. I'll post some of them here when I get back home 2 weeks later.

rusty.

Right, first of all happy chinese new year although it's coming near the end. Today's the 14th day of chinese new year and guess what, I've guard duty to do in the morning. It's quite sad to see CNY coming to an end, no more gambling already. Up till now, I haven't opened all of my angbaos yet. Hopefully there's quite an amount cos i can repay my debts with it, heh.

Oh well, turning 22 soon. damn! time pass really fast, and i have many things i haven't done yet. Say .. I havent saved enough money for a laptop! and I think I wanna get myself a macbook (well provided I have money D:)

Actually I have many things to blog about, but I feel kinda lazy. Just a few msgs to some ...

fangfang : where's the house visit to adeline's?
skinnyboo : u better take great care and stay happy.
to the rest : thanks for reading. hahahaha!



ps: in case you don't know what to give, monetary present is utmost welcomed :P