Wednesday, October 28, 2009

this must be a really bad week

such a bad week. seems like everyone have something against me.
oh my, I'm nearing my limits.
I'm not a bottomless bottle and space in there, is limited. only here then i can bleed it off a little.

so stop pushing me around.
sometimes i just want to have a piece of my mind,
i wanna go somewhere quiet and listen to the crashing waves.



seriously, nothing feels like its going right..


dear tracy, won't you want to take me along with you?

Sunday, October 25, 2009

grandma, please recover.
...

perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

firstly, i had something on before the meet up. and yes, im free, it depends on the time.

secondly, i asked for the time and you diverted my question. you didnt even gave me a chance to explain.

thirdly, i don make promises unless i can deliver what i said. people whom know me v well, knew that i don make promises. you want to know why? i tell you why. i've seen many broken promises that have been made to me and me onto others. i didnt like that feeling, so why force me to make a promise?

forthly, i asked for the time again and you gave attitude, did i mention that i didnt have the chance to explain anything or did you even ask why? you must be pondering "Will i say even if you did ask?" but then again have you tried?



perhaps you're right, my life is kinda messed up and i didnt know how to fix it.
and yes, im a changed person. perhaps the death of her, is the death of me.
i LIED. All along i've been lying to the whole world. i am sick and tired of the plastic smile. the important thing is that i look ok, nobody would have to question me about anything. but im not ok, i cant move on, i didnt know how to and perhaps i didnt want to. i've always been trying my best to help others out with their problems, but i've always been neglecting myself. i've lost something, something which grew up together with me - a family, a friend.




i tell you what, you want to know what's wrong? its me, its me, its me.

it's ok if you're feeling pissed off right now, it's your rights. i may whine but i dont blame you i can't control how you feel, afterall he's just the not-so-mysterious boy who cried wolf and swirls everyone else around his pinky. i don't really care, most of me have died already.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

The triangle theorem.

There are 3 sides to every story :

A's story, B's story and what actually happened.
Well, no one's to blame =D




I can't wait for next saturday!

Friday, October 23, 2009

You don't force me into doing things.

because I'm not obliged to listen to anyone.
Even if I do, I do it on my own free will.

If you want something, ask nicely.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I love my buddies, especially sk!

Right. These 3 polaroid photos were taken on a friday at crazy elephant - my favourite chilling
spot. Once in a while, it's good to chill out and keep in touch. I have lost many friends due to lack of communication, but there are certain friends i know i can't really live without. (:



Valerie, Siewkoon and Me


Siewkoon and Valerie


Me and my buddy (:


The iron doors of the heart shut tightly so that nobody can enter nor exit.


Thursday, October 15, 2009

Continuation from Asian Autosalon 2009

Continuation from the Asia Autosalon series.


Miyake! Her smile makes my day.


Fujio-san and his Rx7


Models from Singapore and Malaysia



Singaporean Model


Chinese and Taiwanese Models


Taiwanese model


French Model


Model from the States. She's only 14 years old!


Models from south american states?

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Asia Autosalon 2009

Went to Asia Autosalon with Jinkiat, Yongming & Mingching at the Singapore Expo on Sunday. The trip down was really worthwhile. I love to visit Car shows, the bassy sound from the cars' exhaust is really deep and sweet. It makes me want to start modifying the family car again.

Nothing much as compared to previous carshows I've been to before, but I walked about and took photographs of the beautiful race queens. Since accessory part were the majority there, photographs consists mainly the race queens and most of the time spent there, was around the stage.

After that, had my first time experience watching drifting. This is the part where it keeps my adreneline pumping. Loud exhaust and cars moving sideways, too bad I don't have my own car to start learning.

Most photographs are under post processing. And so here are some of them which are already done, and can be found under my facebook profile.




First race queen of the day from Japan.


One of the duo racequeens, learining to "drive".
Celestina, Singapore.


And the other duo, Miyake.
She's so cute. Her smile is so mesmerizing.


Cute!


The race princesses


Strutting the runway.


Posing. #1 unknown #2 Singapore #3 Venezuela #4 Singapore


Strutting the Runway again.



Celestina & Naomi on the right.
Runway pose.


Celestina, Naomi, Miyake


Race queens from Singapore lining up for a group shot.


How I wished I can see her again. She just can't get out of my head.
Her smile stole my heart away.. Maybe next carshow :D


Maybe I should find an ah lianish girlfriend in future.
Hahaha. (:

But how come they wanna act jap? uh ohh....

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Communicating comfortably

First of all, i wanted to say, "Happy birthday Angeline" Well, that's what i said to her yesterday. Right.

It's recess week and unknowingly, it's coming to friday already. What happened to time? Has it accelerated? Has it gone out of control? Well.. time, none of us have the power to control time as a whole, but only the power to control what we do in a mere 24hours per day. And even so, 24hours, doesnt seemed enough.

Time flies, it's been 7 years - 8 years since i first saw you, and come to think of it, this really brings back memories - both pleasant and unpleasant ones. And recently, we met up again. Now, i came to realise certain things. It's actually communication that I'm looking for, the ability to get into a 2 way conversation. I've tried out many things to get the answer that I'm looking for, and now I think I've found it.

Everyone can converse in a two way manner, but perhaps, conversing with me can be a problem. Perhaps I'm just being ignorant of what's really happening around me. It's not easy for me to speak up when I'm not being myself. The environment plays a part, the time of the day plays a part, the person I'm talking to plays a part - and a major one at it. There are reasons on why I don't talk much on the phone, people who know me well, knew part of the reason for it. The rest of it, is just personal. And at times, making things personal, is also another reason, on why it's hard for me to speak up unless you're someone who can draw me out of this shell, and thankfully, some of them has it.

Oh well, just being kinda random, but at least i think i found what I'm looking for - my answer to my life.


"When deep injury is done to us, we won't recover until we forgive."