C'est la vie

Right, I shall do a short one. I'm currently sick and I'm going to book in soon. DEPRESSING! Well, what's new? 

I realised that I don't have alot of photos of myself. Maybe I shall take more together with the corolla. Hell yea! 

Army hasn't been good, no improvements at all. I just want to ORD and get back to school. Damn, why am I still suffering here!?

Update just for the sake of updating.

C'est la vie.

Blue and blurry. I'm still waiting for your arrival

Bow to the blue light

Uh oh...

Self achievement

Feeling cold and tired when I'm being shaken up by a nudge from Shyi dong, and I checked my handphone for the time, it was already 3.28am. No time to waste so my bunkmates and I woke up to wash ourselves up and prepare to board the bus to Esplanade Drive.

At the scene itself were seventy thousands of people preparing for the start of the event. They must be nuts, wasting their Sunday on such things. Perhaps we say, it's for our own good. Some liked the challenges, others may find it a chore. Then it started to drizzle, but nobody was really bothered by it. And so the crowd starts to form up at the bridge waiting to cross the starting line. Moving at a very slow pace, we finally saw the ERP gantry and right before the gantry was the start point and there we go, started up slowly for the 21km -AHM run. It's not FHM but AHM, the army half marathon.

The route for the run was as such, from the Esplanade bridge up out to the ECP expressway then to Ford road, then to ECP itself and you continue to run pass McDonalds' and you kept on running without knowing where the turning point is. Finally the turn, and you tell yourself you have 11km more to go, continued to move forward to the new Marina Barrage and make a detour to Esplanade itself. Without knowing where you are, you kept on proceeding forward and finally there it is, the finishing mark. It was a challenge although I didn't really run 21km but I completed the 21km run. Hah! I walked quite a distance with Leong and Kang, but decided to break off with them at the 18-19km mark onwards because I couldn't stand the pace we're moving at. So I ran 3km by myself, bypassing many other participants and alas, crossed the finishing mark. Quite happy with myself, although I was quite slow.

Now, I earned myself a "half marathon runner" name and a pair of painful knees. The run was torturous and I hated running. It was totally boring until you decided to find motivation in it. 

Met up with my BMT mates and we had Carls' Jr (again). Then 3 of us took cab back, and I came back home fast enough, earlier than I thought.

There's another new viaduct opened for traveling from Lornie Road down to Upp Thomson. The new viaduct leads to Bradell Road, I should go explore there myself when I have the time, that is.

Do you got a First-Aid-Kit Handy? Do you know how to patch up a wound?

My hallucination.

Dreams ?

Ever had unattainable dreams? Dreams that u know that you cant reach for sure. Oh well, I'm sure there are many people out there think like these. Why do we even want to dream of something? I can't explain it myself. For me, I dream to be the fastest person on the streets but I know I can't cause there's no way I can expand the little shell I'm in. I'm being contained. Enjoyed driving for most of the times, I want to keep driving and driving. Getting better and better for each time I drove out. 

Attended 2 chalets last night, Yingjia's and Pauline's. Well, same thing all over again. Interact, had a little fun and the rest of the time, stoning. Met some of the "long long see one time" kind of friend and had a little chat. Nothing really special, except the air-con incident which happened in the costa sand resort. It was real amusing, what a joke.

Right, went to Minglong's house after I came back home to chill. Played the PS3 and had some fun. A little Initial D always rocked the day. Met up with Jinkiat, Yongming and Mingching after that for a prata session at Casuarina Curry. Haven't been eating prata for quite some time, well it was sickening.

Two of my friends are having relationship problems. Why do such problems never cease to end? In the first place, why go on a relationship? Sometimes I'm quite envious of people getting together, and also curious to know how will the relationship turn out to be. It's good to be in love, but not everyone gets to enjoy it. Stay being a free man, you'll just find yourself a good hobby. I love dogs. Dogs are somehow better than homo sapiens, that's just my personal feel.

 "Be my guest, and change my mindset"

Still yearning to see my blue and blurry

My very own hallucination.

Hate And Despair. These 2 words always come in a pair

".. let the hate inside you grow stronger. let that hate devour your soul.."

Just a random start for a try. Long weekend finally coming to an end, what a waste. I wish things were to go on like that forever. More off/leave days and less working days. Can I request for more public holidays please? Holy fuck, the previous sentence sound like I'm somebody else, childish! Geez..

Went out to town recently, so much difference noted since the last time I saw the different parts of town, Bugis, Orchard, Suntec. What else should I go next? Lucky my zombud is free to accompany me, both of us got too much time to spare. Received 2 Graniph tees from her, wore it and found that the lightly yellow coloured tee doesn't really suit me, although it makes me look happy. Well, that's what I feel. Bought a joker tee from DC Superheroes, Suntec City. 

"To them you're a freak .. like me"

And the following day bought a pair of slippers from Birks. Perhaps I should control my spendings soon, or maybe get someone to take care of my "treasury" Hahahahaha. Speaking of which, where's my blue and blurry? Hmmm ... I think I need someone to capable to control me before I go out of control.

Damn this is real depressing, I'm about to book in soon. After a long 5-day rest, it's time to suffer again. Oh well, what do you expect? I have quite a number of things to do once I get back, meetings to attend, rooms to settle for the following week, vehicles to indent etc.. THIS IS MOST IRRITATING.

I see nothing good about Ann Ess, really a waste of time. I should have seen it before I even got enlisted. Nothing or no one can change this mentality of mine(plus several hundred of thousands of fucking conscripts), not even God, not Kira Yagami,  and most definitely not my superiors(regardless of their rank/experience).

I want to be like the joker, carefree and intelligent. Too bad he's only appear in the movies/books. 

"..let's put a smile to that face.."

Lend me a helping hand in saving myself, will you?

Blue and blurry..

Depressing. Where did my motivation went to?

Right, let's just go straight to the point. Recently I felt very fucked up, I'm very depressed and guess what? I've got no choice, the army doesn't give you a chance to say no. Now my stand on army has changed from bad to worse. I have a very negative mindset on serving army, so bear with me, I can't help complaining! In the past I can't wait to get enlisted, and like my cousin said, once you go in, you can't wait to get out. Nobody will know how I feel, I just want to serve and fuck off quickly.

I'm extremely depressed. Now with all the new responsibilities without a pay rise, my heart sunk to the bottom of the valleys. Emo-ed and emo-ing.

Went out with my dearrresst sister celine from my poly water painting class. Yesterday was the first time we went out together since we first met, and the best thing is that I don't think I ever spoke to her in class before. Hahaha, you see, weird things happened. Had Shokudo for dinner, don't know if it's spelt like that but the place specialises in japanese pastas. Her treat for being late! Hahaha. I didn't really had appetite to eat, so I couldn't finish my soup and my salmon pasta. 

After which, we took some photos and I sent her to Chinatown to sell! Hahahaha. Sent her to Chinatown to meet her friend for a drink. While I went to meet my poly mates at Paradiz centre to play pool.

Yup, my dearest sister and me learning to smile.

Darlie advert.

Yeah, that's more like it. I can't smile.

She said she can make me smile in front of the camera, we shall see! Hahaha.

Take care yea! Be happy soon.

=)

So ... where did my blue and blurry gone to?