Depressing. Where did my motivation went to?

Right, let's just go straight to the point. Recently I felt very fucked up, I'm very depressed and guess what? I've got no choice, the army doesn't give you a chance to say no. Now my stand on army has changed from bad to worse. I have a very negative mindset on serving army, so bear with me, I can't help complaining! In the past I can't wait to get enlisted, and like my cousin said, once you go in, you can't wait to get out. Nobody will know how I feel, I just want to serve and fuck off quickly.

I'm extremely depressed. Now with all the new responsibilities without a pay rise, my heart sunk to the bottom of the valleys. Emo-ed and emo-ing.

Went out with my dearrresst sister celine from my poly water painting class. Yesterday was the first time we went out together since we first met, and the best thing is that I don't think I ever spoke to her in class before. Hahaha, you see, weird things happened. Had Shokudo for dinner, don't know if it's spelt like that but the place specialises in japanese pastas. Her treat for being late! Hahaha. I didn't really had appetite to eat, so I couldn't finish my soup and my salmon pasta. 

After which, we took some photos and I sent her to Chinatown to sell! Hahahaha. Sent her to Chinatown to meet her friend for a drink. While I went to meet my poly mates at Paradiz centre to play pool.

Yup, my dearest sister and me learning to smile.

Darlie advert.

Yeah, that's more like it. I can't smile.

She said she can make me smile in front of the camera, we shall see! Hahaha.

Take care yea! Be happy soon.

=)

So ... where did my blue and blurry gone to?