Tuesday, December 30, 2008

back to the old brown feeling

Please hold while the user clears the cobwebs.

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Hello world, its me again. Been quite a while since my last updates, been rather busy and lazy all the time. Life has been so-so recently, LESS THE GUARD DUTY, everything is still in control - my control (except for things which I cannot control, that is) This is one thing bad about me, I always forget most of the stuff when I left it back days ago and when I wanted to remember it, all I can do is to base on photographs.

Picked up 2 new hobbies recently, photography and photo editing. The latter, although troublesome, it gives a sense of satisfaction (be it properly edited or not). Whatever the case is, I'm gonna "showcase" some of the fun shots I've taken during some of the activities I went to. I don't call it events cos events are meant to be big, let's just say private parties hahaha.

Start of with the celebration of Selina's birthday and xmas celebration


Jingying arriving with presents for all

Selina and Huizheng

Francis and Weiling

Partying at S-Box. Anyway it's free of charge

Birthday girl with her cake

Presents time, look! Yuhong's all smiles ...

and frowns D:

Merry and joys of Christmas.

The few of us

And lastly, the group photo.



And let's end off with Jasmine's celebration (have to make it quick, cos I'll be bookin in really soon)

People playing beach volleyball

Peacock in the middle of nowhere

A little girl wanting to share her chips

The two Jasmines

Jasmine soh's glamour pic

And this is what happens when the birthday girl opened up her scrapbook

And she's all smiles again.

A little more push to the cake would make it topple.



Taken with her dad.


Lastly taken with us.


Okay, that's all for now. I have to book in really soon..
For more pictures, do check out my facebook profile.
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Monday, December 22, 2008

Screwed up.

Sometimes I feel so screwed up. I am so uncertain about my own life, uncertain about the path I'm taking. People have start giving up on me, for I am giving up on myself. I feel .. zombified.

Monday, December 15, 2008

THIS OLD TEMPLATE MUST GO!

Its time for a change. A new template for a new year ahead, though I have nothing much to look forward to the new year except for ORD/Disrupt, and the start of my new academic year. It's time to put most of the stuff behind after year 2008, and start anew again. But definately there's some part of me which I'll retain for sure, say some personality and character-wise. Stuff like kids, flowers, homosapians etc ..

Maybe some one can change me .. well maybe not ..
Stuff like that are hard for me to say. We'll act upon fate's calling..


Christmas is coming .. I hope it snows.

terrible

What a terrible week for me, real terrible. Returned to camp on Tuesday(official start of the week) only to find out that I'm going to do last-minute-no-notice guard. I hate it when my friends changed the duty roster without informing me, of course I'm referring to those that involved me. Practically I hate everything .. ahahahaha!

I don't know whether it's fate or just mere coincidence. Recently I've watched "The day the Earth stood still" and this anime called "Karas", both of them have the same problem - humans. Humans are selfish. Humans think they rule the world, but all that we know of is that humans destroy humans. This is the self destructive nature of us homosapians. Perhaps one fine day, doomsday will come.

Recently Valerie has posted some calvin and hobbes quotes, and it reminded me of something which is to buy Calvin and Hobbes comics from Kinokuniya. Anyway it's christmas season and I hate christmas. Modern time Grinch perhaps? Hahahaha

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

back... AT LAST ! HA !

"Ladies and gentlemen, as we will be touching down in Singapore Changi Airport shortly, may we ask you to get back to your seat and fasten your seat belt .. " I have waited for nearly a month to hear that phrase from the cabin crew AND FINALLY, the time has arrived. You can feel it, the feeling of the landing wheels on the airport runway and the G-force acting against the body as the pilot activates the reverse thrust and the spoilers, breaking the aerofoil shape of the wings while slowing the plane down to the required taxi-ing speed. AND TA-DAH! Unlocked the overhead compartment to take down my hand-carry bag and proceeded outside.

It's really good to be back in Singapore once again, after the recent chaotic moments which happened in Mumbai which got my parents and some friends worried. The water here is clean, the air smells much better and most of all, they speak english! So communication isnt much problem now. Right, but we're back to the high standards of living in Singapore - expensive food, expensive clothings and the worst of the worst, ENDLESS ERP GANTRIES! But nevertheless, Singapore is where I belonged, where else could be better besides home.

It was around 0900hrs, I met my mom at the exit of the arrival hall. I went to shop abit first before heading out anyway things inside airport are much cheaper. Duty free means no tax! =)
Bought a Bvlgari cologne for myself, and I didn't see anything much I can afford. Sorry guys, didn't buy anything back from India because there really isn't much to buy from and my RnR got cancelled because of the terrorists bombings.

Took photographs during outfield but couldnt post most of them because they are rather sensitive as you guys know. Saw something rare and sick during the time I was at the Mumbai International Airport, a mother of a child dropped her toddler and she did a face plant to the floor/chair. The toddler was crying rather badly as her face was covered in blood, totally got owned. At that point of time, I simply smiled to my friends. I think I'm sick .. real bloody sick.



Cows everywhere we go.
"COW IS THE MOTHER OF PROSPERITY"


Wild dog at one of our deployment areas.

I decided not to post anymore pictures cos most of them are rather sensitive. I could show you in some other ways though. Hahaha.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

A silent journey, to the path of self realization.

Right guys, a few more hours to go. It's okay if you don't know what I'm talking about, anyway it's not really important (: Bags' pretty full and I reckoned it will not pass the standards. HOPEFULLY IT WILL ! if not it'll be damn troublesome.

Bought the camera already, eos 40D. It's very fun to play with, and its time for me to learn new things, again. Went to airport in the night to take a few shots. It was a trip filled with experience.
Right, I don't want to say much, just wanted to say, Take care guys!

BYEBYE!



Do you think anyone will be there to suprise me when I get back? Hahaha. Probably bound to forget.

Monday, October 27, 2008

A simple check.

Happy Deepavali celebrations to my indian friends. Today's a public holiday (yeah, we all know that -_-), so I wanna say " Let's take a break guys! It's Monday. " Right, I'm starting to think about my complicated and messed up life. It felt like I am close to nobody, or you can also say nobody is close to me, not even my family. Well, I don't know but I only speak of my problems when there's a need (like you guys need explanation on that). I am slowly living in my own world, one fine day I'll just have to shut everyone out. Perhaps only animals may tread on the desolated grounds of my very own world. Everyone else will seem superficial then.

You're a king to your own world, and nobody's going rule it for you. You're a stepping stone to everybody, so it's only natural to watch your back. You have to step on stones to get up, chances and opportunities don't come by very often. You're the referee to your own game, people will to play by the rules, your rules. You have to set up a safety perimeter, so that anyone goes beyond that, can and will understand what pain is.


Somehow or rather, I've become sick. Not sick in the head but I've caught cold and it's starting to piss me off. Let me just call it the tap which wouldn't shut itself. Got to book in by tonight, and there goes my long break. I have still yet to do all the preparations needed, perhaps by this week everything will be settled. And a not so surprising news today, my phone never rang at all. Hohoho!



It will be a cold, silent journey.

time flies.

Time flies really quickly as it has always been. Looking around my surroundings, friends have started to get married and some even have kids. Then when I start to do a reality check on myself, and so I thought "Damn, I'm getting old".

Why is everybody rushing to be a fool? Isn't it too early to settle down just yet? Wise men say, only fools rush in. Guessed there's more fools out there than we can ever imagined. Oh well, that's their life. I can still remember my buddy once said, "I feel that you life is very messed up. You're so mysterious." And slowly I asked around, and they said some other stuff but to sum it up, mysterious. Why, why am I leading such a sad life? There must surely be some stuff to perk things up. Maybe one day someone will tell me a different thing.

Been at home these few days, only drove out in the night to relax. I finally caught a movie at Cineleisure, Tropic Thunder. It's a stupidly funny movie, great for easing things up. It got a really weird start and a weird ending, you should watch it for yourself.

As for today, I spent the day at home doing .. nothing! Then went out in the night with my family and grandmother at bottle tree seafood restaurant at Sembawang area. The place wasn't too bad, the food was alright. The plus point is that they have the sea for you BUT it was too dark to see anything beyond the street lamps. Perhaps more boats should pass by the area to make things colourful. Other than this, I practically rot at home.










my blue and blurry,
maybe i need big hug.
but who cares anyway, I'd probably will fucking massacre everyone.



DIE!

(I think I need a psychiatrist. )

Thursday, October 23, 2008

You

You..

are just a tool


You..

are just a joker - to entertain and to deceive.


You..

have nothing


You..

are nothing

Sunday, October 12, 2008

once in a blue moon

Finally, I've decided to get myself to type something in this update. But don't pinned your hopes too high for there's nothing interesting to read about my life.
Right, here we go.

Let's just make things simple for a start. I've finally upgraded my handphone plan to iTWOplus because there's longer talk time. If these free 300mins talk time were to use to call my friends, I wouldn't mind for sure BUT no! The 300mins talk time were mostly for NS stuff, depressing! -_-
Anyway I've also changed my hp again to E51. I know that is a very common NS phone but who gives a shit, the resolution is clear, the loudness is there and that is what I need 'cos the volume for the previous phone is way too soft.

I have many things in mind that I wanted to buy really soon. A Canon EOS 40D Camera, a dry-cabinet for the camera, new polo tee shirt, a Bvgari cologne, a pair of BOSE/SHURE earphones, an external HDD with really large space etc. I'm very reluctant to changes for certain things such as cologne. Maybe I should get the Bodyshop one instead, haha.

Went rounding last night with my poly friends. Went to yishun dam and get to watch cars chasing one another, so exciting. Then went to Jurong west because Daryl went 'holland'. The intended destination was supposed to be at '40 tiang'. After that sent some of my friends back home, and while I was on my way back, something really random happened but I shall not blog about it here.






Some of the photos taken quite some time back. It's not the recent rounding adventures though.
Alright, back to camp.





Blue and blurry.. I'm still waiting for your arrival.
According to legend, must wait for 12years.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

grocery shopping

It's Hari raya puasa today, I supposed I got it right. Happy new year to all my malay friends! Right, since today's a public holiday, I practically rot at home and only went out in the night. Went to Juncti8n for a MOS burger dinner(haven eaten MOS burger in awhile) and then went to do some grocery shopping with Daryl at NTUC. Bought alot of snacks to fill my cupboard with junkfood, next up I'll accquire my licence to set up a mini mama-shop hahaha.

Went rounding last night with Elson, Peizhi, Leong, Shirong, Jiunn. A total waste of petrol, and the night had been spoilt by heavy rain in the West Area. During then, we were at the 40 tiang(40 lamp post) stretch. Tried doing stupid things there and nearly got into accident, because the weather was very bad and I did not check properly. Luckily, all went well. Driving around and Elson wanted to take a nice photo but too bad, it wasn't really successful. Due to the heavy rains, we had to go to a multi storey carpark to take, it was too bright then. Then drive off again to waste more petrol and yada-yada, I got home at around 4am.




I realised I cannot update anymore, 'cos I'll be booking in soon. Haven't been talking to much people online, soon I'll just have to isolate myself like a contagious disease carrier. This world is too much pain.. I should just blow everything up. Boom!


fattyboo! haven't spoke to you properly in quite awhile, make sure you're doing well in your studies and your life hahaha. Sometimes I just missed talking to you but everyone just got busy somehow.







Blue and blurry, does that ever exist?

One question for readers of this blog(if there are even anyone reading), what is the maximum number of cookies can the cookie monster eat?

Sunday, September 28, 2008

the vase

I'm gonna have one more post for tonight, as I totally got nothing much to do. Watching tonight's F1 race in Singapore, on TV >.< Too bad I don't have the tickets for it, they're too darn expensive!
How nice if I could be like one of them, driving fast cars speeding down the track without receiving a speeding ticket. Different people have different lives perhaps.

It's been quite awhile since I last ate together with my family, went to Quality Hotel to have dinner with my family, grandmother and my uncle because it was my mom's birthday few days back, on the 26th. The restaurant serves vegetarian buffet, I remember I've been there once before but kinda forgotten when, supposed it was very long time back.

Talking about family, I'm very fortunate to have a great family. Not everyone is as fortunate as me though. Sometimes I thought to myself that I've haven't been spending alot of time with my family members. All of us were busy, mom and dad has to work, eldest sister weren't home most of the times. The person I get to see most often is my second sister, although sometimes she's out with her boyfriend or she went to school. And its not very often that I get to see her too, I myself will be stuck in the stupid camp, doing meaningless duties. The only time I get to enjoy myself there is during admin time, after RO. In layman terms, it's a period whereby that marks the end of the day.

In the past, the only family member I get to see the most often is Tracy. Always there, waggling her tail as I opened the door to home. Come to think of it, it's really good to have her around cos i won't feel as lonely when there's nobody at home. Now, things are different. You know, it's really difficult to get me talking about myself. Afterall, I have a poker face. There's only a few out there, whereby I'll truly let it out. Some of which are pretty obvious, while the others are not.
And fatty, don't worry okay I'm not being emo about tracy again. It's quite a sad case whereby u knew her too late. Perhaps next time when I get a new dog, you take care of the dog for me okay?! Hahaha =Pp

Sometimes I wonder, how do I link from something to the other? It makes no sense. When something goes wrong, it clouds your mind. My vision is blurred, my mind's been clouded, and my soul's wrecked. Fatigue sets in, while the spirit to fight dimishes as days past. I need to fight on, but can I?
Who am I fighting with, you wonder? None other than myself. I am hurting myself while I'm healing my scars.







An irony, which I cannot explain myself.

Poker face

I tried, but I just cannot shake it away. This is really painful.
I have a poker face.
Who would lend a helping hand and wash this scars away?


Went for supper at the tea house near my place with Jinkiat, Minglong, Hongwei. Decided not to join the rest for movie in town, but thanks for calling me anyway. I really can't wait to get my hands on a new DSLR camera. Just checked the pricing online and the Canon EOS 50D is really too expensive. I guessed I don't need such a good camera, so I'll just settle with the 40D.


Many people in my contacts in my list have lost contacted. Perhaps I should spend some time, and spend my time wisely. Time management is such an important issue in life, yet I'm very poor at handling time. TIME AND MONEY!!


Yeah, I guessed readers might be thinking what actually happened to me but I think I'm fine. Or perhaps not, but I don't really bother anyway. I'm so skeptical of my life, it has totally no directions.
I think I need help.



Save me.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

The hauntings of the past.

I'm back on a Thursday night, b'cos I'm on off tomorrow. Went to the hospital for my medical appointment today, and I saw Errick! or rather he saw me when I was eating by myself at the food court. As I went for lunch after the appointment, I waited for him at the waiting area because its not his turn yet. Then I hopped on his car and he sent me back to camp, while he go for his 'off' day. Darn!

I got myself 6weeks of status. The best thing is, I don't have to wear boots! Yeah! :D

It will be a short entry for now, before I actually typed something out.









Everytime I see your photo, I get reminded of you.
I'm scarred. Badly.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Super Import Nights 2008

Yoohoo! Finally some updates that loyal readers wanting to read. I don't even know if there's anybody still reading this crap but oh well, I'll just do the updates.

Went to Super Import Nights and saw many cars out there. Those with cool LED lights, those with superb sound systems and also those with the artwork on the cars. Nothing much there, just took pictures with my camera and most of them were poorly taken due to me shaking. For that, I really want a Canon DSLR camera! I'm want the new Canon EOS 50D if not the older version 40D. Hopefully dad will chip in money to buy the 50D for me. Photography is fun. But let's not go into that yet. Some of the models appeared and I managed to take a few shots. They are always surrounded by photographers with DSLR camera! Totally stand no chance at all! Right, the pictures will be posted at the end of the updates (as usual).

After that went back to SP to see the LTC nightwalk, but I think the main purpose for me there is to see old friends. I didn't really help out much though. Meanwhile, sent Shuejun back to her place from the MRT. Took quite a while before I managed to find my way to her place. Nothing much interesting happened today, just that I find the screamings at the Business Block irritating, 'cos they are rather high pitched. Damn those voices.



Rx-7 (FD3s) with it's hood opened up. Notice the size of the intercooler?

Rx-8 Front.

Cool, mean rims. Lamborghini LP640

Somehow this model seems to attract me.

I find the model on the right is pretty cute.

Matte black GT-R. Batman's new ride


Artistic shot.


Time to go in again. Take care!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Yet again ...

Finally, my toe is getting to normal state but it still hurts when I tried to run. I think it'll never return to the original state. I supposed when you crack a bone, there's bone fragments lying around, well maybe inside my toe. How are they going to take those fragments out? Operation? Perhaps the fragments can be treated like fertilizer for the toe.
Due to the way I walked for these for these few days, I think I injure my ankle. It starts to hurt when I'm just walking normally at home. Will have to see how it goes on for these few days.

During my stay at home, I got really bored and started to take photographs of my own stuff. There's a piece which I really liked. Anyway here are they ..



This is my room. As usual, it has always been that messy.


My keyboard.


And my favorite piece.


Cheers.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

The ArtHouse

Perhaps I should take time down to the ArtHouse. I would like to have a copy of Zhang Jingna's "Something Beautiful" but it costs so expensive. Her photography skills are simply beyond words, and she's a year younger than me. Such a talented girl.



Picture taken from deviantART.com

My 1st and 2nd visitor

Today I have my 1st and 2nd visitor. My foot's starting to recover, I can start to walk about without much hassle. However if you've noticed closely, I did not apply much pressure on the injured spot because it still hurts when pressure is applied. Moreover it feels weird because the toe feels hard due to the blood clot, well that's what I assumed. It feels like the toe isn't mine. Hahaha.

Jasmine Eng and Jasmine Soh came to pay me a visit, so I asked them to help me buy back dinner. Mee hoon kueh for dinner, mmm... haven been eating that since very long time ago. They still looked pretty alright to me, maybe we still meet up quite often.

Finally my computer's back to normal with further software upgrades, and that includes my iPod. Now it really looked like an iPhone, without the phone itself. Recently I've been rather angry over the computer and my corrupted data. I couldn't save all my photographs some of them went corrupted before I can format the harddisk drive. As for the songs, I extracted them out from my iPod, cool eh? Everything's starting from scratch now. In the digital world it's easy to start from scratch time and time again. How nice if I could start my life from scratch again.

Been resting at home for 4days since my MC started. It's good to take a break from army although I don't have much to do at home. Tomorrow will be the last day of my MC, then I've to report back to Khatib camp again. However I will not be doing any stainous activities till the 26th. Long medical status, perhaps I should start to "geng" and hopefully downgrade my PES status.

Now what I really want to do is to try if I can drive, maybe I should start off slow. Oh well, I couldn't imagine life without driving for long. I probably feel crippled.





Still water runs deep.
Everything you see might be just a deception.






A joker advice for the day
Don't set yourself on fire. It kinda hurt.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Horrible Start of the Week

Right guys, haven't been update for quite some time. You must be wondering, why on earth am I here when I'm supposed to be in camp. The answer is pretty simple, I'm on MC for 5 days, basically that makes up the week. Yesterday started badly, a metallic wheelchoke fell and it's pointed edge smashed into my 2nd toe. Although I was suffering then, I had no choice but to endure the pain till the ICCT Grading is over. I'm not going to waste any more time on that, since it's my 2nd time taking it. It's rather difficult for me to walk, so I had to limp around.

Everything went smoothly until the sparring session, because we have to move about in the arena, somehow I aggravate the injury on my toe. At the end of the session, I fell out and requested to see the medic. They gave me ice packs to put on the toe, it was very cold and when I decided to stand up, I have difficulties in walking, even limping around. So this time I limped very slowly to the railings and proceed to go down the flight of stairs.

The Medic sent me to see the MO and the MO sent me to hospital via ambulance. This is my first time taking ambulance to the hospital. So cool! And at the hospital, I limped around until I finally decided to get a wheelchair thus travelling made easier. Saw the xray and doc says i have a distinct crack in my bone. After which she referred me outside, and so I followed. Who knows, the lady whom I'm supposed to meet gave me few forms and directed me outside to the pharmacy.

As usual, I have to wait for quite a while before it's my turn to get my medication. I waited quite some time just to get a packet of painkillers -__- Terrible. Took dinner and went back to camp by ambulance again. Then packed my bag and headed home. It was raining heavily then ...


Just my luck.

Anybody wanna pay a visit to my home? I'm so lonely here. hahaha
Oh well...

Sunday, August 31, 2008

C'est la vie

Right, I shall do a short one. I'm currently sick and I'm going to book in soon. DEPRESSING! Well, what's new? 

I realised that I don't have alot of photos of myself. Maybe I shall take more together with the corolla. Hell yea! 

Army hasn't been good, no improvements at all. I just want to ORD and get back to school. Damn, why am I still suffering here!?




Update just for the sake of updating.
C'est la vie.




Blue and blurry. I'm still waiting for your arrival

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Bow to the blue light

Uh oh...

Self achievement

Feeling cold and tired when I'm being shaken up by a nudge from Shyi dong, and I checked my handphone for the time, it was already 3.28am. No time to waste so my bunkmates and I woke up to wash ourselves up and prepare to board the bus to Esplanade Drive.

At the scene itself were seventy thousands of people preparing for the start of the event. They must be nuts, wasting their Sunday on such things. Perhaps we say, it's for our own good. Some liked the challenges, others may find it a chore. Then it started to drizzle, but nobody was really bothered by it. And so the crowd starts to form up at the bridge waiting to cross the starting line. Moving at a very slow pace, we finally saw the ERP gantry and right before the gantry was the start point and there we go, started up slowly for the 21km -AHM run. It's not FHM but AHM, the army half marathon.

The route for the run was as such, from the Esplanade bridge up out to the ECP expressway then to Ford road, then to ECP itself and you continue to run pass McDonalds' and you kept on running without knowing where the turning point is. Finally the turn, and you tell yourself you have 11km more to go, continued to move forward to the new Marina Barrage and make a detour to Esplanade itself. Without knowing where you are, you kept on proceeding forward and finally there it is, the finishing mark. It was a challenge although I didn't really run 21km but I completed the 21km run. Hah! I walked quite a distance with Leong and Kang, but decided to break off with them at the 18-19km mark onwards because I couldn't stand the pace we're moving at. So I ran 3km by myself, bypassing many other participants and alas, crossed the finishing mark. Quite happy with myself, although I was quite slow.

Now, I earned myself a "half marathon runner" name and a pair of painful knees. The run was torturous and I hated running. It was totally boring until you decided to find motivation in it. 

Met up with my BMT mates and we had Carls' Jr (again). Then 3 of us took cab back, and I came back home fast enough, earlier than I thought.
There's another new viaduct opened for traveling from Lornie Road down to Upp Thomson. The new viaduct leads to Bradell Road, I should go explore there myself when I have the time, that is.











Do you got a First-Aid-Kit Handy? Do you know how to patch up a wound?
My hallucination.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Dreams ?

Ever had unattainable dreams? Dreams that u know that you cant reach for sure. Oh well, I'm sure there are many people out there think like these. Why do we even want to dream of something? I can't explain it myself. For me, I dream to be the fastest person on the streets but I know I can't cause there's no way I can expand the little shell I'm in. I'm being contained. Enjoyed driving for most of the times, I want to keep driving and driving. Getting better and better for each time I drove out. 

Attended 2 chalets last night, Yingjia's and Pauline's. Well, same thing all over again. Interact, had a little fun and the rest of the time, stoning. Met some of the "long long see one time" kind of friend and had a little chat. Nothing really special, except the air-con incident which happened in the costa sand resort. It was real amusing, what a joke.

Right, went to Minglong's house after I came back home to chill. Played the PS3 and had some fun. A little Initial D always rocked the day. Met up with Jinkiat, Yongming and Mingching after that for a prata session at Casuarina Curry. Haven't been eating prata for quite some time, well it was sickening.

Two of my friends are having relationship problems. Why do such problems never cease to end? In the first place, why go on a relationship? Sometimes I'm quite envious of people getting together, and also curious to know how will the relationship turn out to be. It's good to be in love, but not everyone gets to enjoy it. Stay being a free man, you'll just find yourself a good hobby. I love dogs. Dogs are somehow better than homo sapiens, that's just my personal feel.

 "Be my guest, and change my mindset"







Still yearning to see my blue and blurry
My very own hallucination.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Hate And Despair. These 2 words always come in a pair

".. let the hate inside you grow stronger. let that hate devour your soul.."

Just a random start for a try. Long weekend finally coming to an end, what a waste. I wish things were to go on like that forever. More off/leave days and less working days. Can I request for more public holidays please? Holy fuck, the previous sentence sound like I'm somebody else, childish! Geez..

Went out to town recently, so much difference noted since the last time I saw the different parts of town, Bugis, Orchard, Suntec. What else should I go next? Lucky my zombud is free to accompany me, both of us got too much time to spare. Received 2 Graniph tees from her, wore it and found that the lightly yellow coloured tee doesn't really suit me, although it makes me look happy. Well, that's what I feel. Bought a joker tee from DC Superheroes, Suntec City. 

"To them you're a freak .. like me"

And the following day bought a pair of slippers from Birks. Perhaps I should control my spendings soon, or maybe get someone to take care of my "treasury" Hahahahaha. Speaking of which, where's my blue and blurry? Hmmm ... I think I need someone to capable to control me before I go out of control.

Damn this is real depressing, I'm about to book in soon. After a long 5-day rest, it's time to suffer again. Oh well, what do you expect? I have quite a number of things to do once I get back, meetings to attend, rooms to settle for the following week, vehicles to indent etc.. THIS IS MOST IRRITATING.

I see nothing good about Ann Ess, really a waste of time. I should have seen it before I even got enlisted. Nothing or no one can change this mentality of mine(plus several hundred of thousands of fucking conscripts), not even God, not Kira Yagami,  and most definitely not my superiors(regardless of their rank/experience).

I want to be like the joker, carefree and intelligent. Too bad he's only appear in the movies/books. 




"..let's put a smile to that face.."











Lend me a helping hand in saving myself, will you?
Blue and blurry..

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Depressing. Where did my motivation went to?

Right, let's just go straight to the point. Recently I felt very fucked up, I'm very depressed and guess what? I've got no choice, the army doesn't give you a chance to say no. Now my stand on army has changed from bad to worse. I have a very negative mindset on serving army, so bear with me, I can't help complaining! In the past I can't wait to get enlisted, and like my cousin said, once you go in, you can't wait to get out. Nobody will know how I feel, I just want to serve and fuck off quickly.

I'm extremely depressed. Now with all the new responsibilities without a pay rise, my heart sunk to the bottom of the valleys. Emo-ed and emo-ing.

Went out with my dearrresst sister celine from my poly water painting class. Yesterday was the first time we went out together since we first met, and the best thing is that I don't think I ever spoke to her in class before. Hahaha, you see, weird things happened. Had Shokudo for dinner, don't know if it's spelt like that but the place specialises in japanese pastas. Her treat for being late! Hahaha. I didn't really had appetite to eat, so I couldn't finish my soup and my salmon pasta. 

After which, we took some photos and I sent her to Chinatown to sell! Hahahaha. Sent her to Chinatown to meet her friend for a drink. While I went to meet my poly mates at Paradiz centre to play pool.



Yup, my dearest sister and me learning to smile.



Darlie advert.


Yeah, that's more like it. I can't smile.

She said she can make me smile in front of the camera, we shall see! Hahaha.


Take care yea! Be happy soon.
=)










So ... where did my blue and blurry gone to? 

Friday, July 25, 2008

Why so serious?!

I just caught 'The Dark Knight' yesterday, and guessed what? Joker is the man. I see some similarities between myself and him, just that I don't kill but I love knives. He's so cool! I love his attitude, his beliefs in human nature. He's alone, he don't fucking care. I see myself in him.
Life is just a game, whatever doesn't kill you, makes you ... stranger.

Went for my pilot interview this morning, well I knew I wouldn't pass it. When I was waiting for the interview, my mind was like 'Fuck, I shouldn't have came here in the first place' and I can't wait to leave. The passion for being a fighter pilot slowly died down when SAF inefficiencies slowly grow into me. Waited for like hmm.. very long before this fucking interview came. Why wait till I get my 3SG chevrons then tell me 'Are you interested in becoming a pilot?' Hahahahaha, I'm starting to think like Joker, I'm starting to lose control of myself, I'm starting to forsake things I once dreamt to be, I'm starting to not give a damn to anything.



Why so serious? Let's put a smile to that face.
Hahahaha... hahahaha

Sunday, July 20, 2008

days spent away

Hollah amigos!

Met up with Jasmine on Wednesday during my nights out, she drove me around so I suggested to go to T3 since she haven't eat Popeye in a rather long time. It was an enjoyable time 'cause I haven't felt so relaxed already. The environment there is not bad, just that there's crowd in the eating place. Sat down, chit-chat over dinner and went shopping for groceries afterwards. Time passed very quickly so without knowing, it's time to report back camp already.

Then on friday night, I wasn't feeling very well. So I told my friends that I will not be joining them for a drink. It was a last minute decision! But again, I did not wish to stay at home so I drove out and went to Admiralty to look for Jingying. Finally I get to meet her, haven't seen her since 2, 3years ago. Went to T3 again 'cause I got no place to go to. Had Yakun over there and left the place.

Saturday, everyone is looking forward to Fridays and weekends. I went to bugis with my zombud and Valerie was there! Ah, my secret admirer (Don't tell others that she likes me. Hahahaha just kidding about that.) 



I will update more when I get back

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Suffering.

I think I finally knew what went wrong. 

From that day on, I lost my soul.
I just realised that you stole it away.
Maybe all the while I have just been avoiding the fact,
running away from the truth.

I can no longer be the same guy as before.


Such a troublesome matter,
but yet I cant shake it off.





It has been 5 years already.

Sunday, July 06, 2008

One bad saturday

Its Saturday/Sunday morning and it isn't really good. I practically wasted my saturday. I only went out in the night, ate dinner/supper then headed down to Punggol Marina cos Joel wanted to go prawning. At the end of the 1hour, nothing was caught so he gave up and we headed back home.

Nothing much today. Zz!




I nearly smashed into this cab, suddenly turn out just like that. Stupid! 



I probably have died a long time ago ..

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

My first off.

Right, as the title speaks for itself, today is battalion off because yesterday was SAF day. The people think that we've done pretty well and I think we deserve the praise. Much efforts were put into the event, and I saw many one-star generals around. 3 bars no longer hold any place in my eyes. 

Went to Funan IT Mall with Xiaoting, Natalie and Mingwei(Natalie's bf). They went to buy macbook together. It looked cool but was rather heavy. Then we went to Ngee Ann tower A to settle some admin stuff as Xiaoting applied for a job. After that we went to her house to figure out how the macbook is to be used. First of all, the interface looked very strange to me. The windows couldn't be maximized etc. I'm not a mac user, so perhaps a VAIO for me will be good. I saw one pretty looking set at Funan. I supposed it's not cheap though.

Had dinner and went back home. Rather short day, but enjoyable one cos I haven't seen them in a while. Perhaps we should meet up for dinner/supper again soon.











The blurry image fades..
I should refrain myself from falling in love. hahahah

Sunday, June 29, 2008

howdy!

Hollah amigos!

Time for the weekly sunday update. The previous week past rather quickly, especially my weekends. Met up with my army friends to go rounding. Basically we covered near extremes of singapore. Areas covered - Kallang Mac, Kallang Stadium Carpark, Bedok, East Coast Park, Clementi, Kent Ridge 99turns, Kent Ridge Park. Oh and btw, it's not in order. Poor planning by us. At the end of the "day", I'm totally shagged out. Started at 10pm till 6am, with rest in between. Of course, I dozed off while driving still .. hahaha. It's a little bit dangerous =Ppp

Satudary, where did I go? Oh, I went St Andrews church to show support for Grace's event. Then after that, I went Mustafa with Daryl. On that day, I saw iPhone and now I don't think I will get it because of the messaging, so difficult. Try typing on iPod Touch gives you a feel of the iPhone. Bought one lemon air freshener for $3.90 at Mustafa.

Sunday, went to play badminton at Yio Chu Kang CC with the two Jasmine. I cannot play badz, very lousy and inflexible. Oh well, I'm bad at sports. Woke up late today, so I missed out lunch with Kristie and gang. Sorry. Headed towards Bishan area to get a haircut, now it's short and neat! =DD



Some of the photographs taken recently so you guys have an idea on what the hell am I doing.





Convoy Party. 4 out of 5 cars present.



Brake lights.



Mc's commissioning parade.



This is myself, taken at Kallang mac.


Yup, that's all for now.



I'm still searching for my blur and blurry. Perhaps I must wait for 4 years.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

DOWN ON LUCK!

This is crap shit. I'm so unlucky recently. First, the battery office is not "clean". Secondly, I failed my ICCT grading because of stupid lame excuses by those fucking lameshit instructors. THIRD, I GOT PARKING SUMMON. Sigh, I'm so broke. Who's gonna support me? Sighh =(





Everyone seems to be falling in love recently. Oh well, congrats to them and best wishes.






Now, where did my blue and blurry go to ?

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Just shut up!

It really gets me on my nerves when my parents are quarreling over minor issues. It always happen, same outcome. They just wanna make me join in the argument. 

Went for dinner at the same place near my house and there were this bunch of kids, pissing me off. They kept on shouting and screaming, noise pollution. If there were no law, there were already crushed. Hahaha, somehow I think I'm sick in the head. Oh well, perhaps I should attend some love-the-kids campaign.

Uh oh ....






Thinking back

Finally sometime to update before I go to bed. This will be a rather short update, well I supposed.

Promoted to becoming a 3SG. Life in a battery is seriously, a complete switch off. There are times whereby I find myself finding things to do, other than finding a place to slack. However that's just the first week of spec life. I hope things will be better as time goes by. Anyway, I still detest NS. What the hell am I thinking when I said I'm excited to go into NS before I got enlisted.

Went to MC's commissioning parade today, it was really grand. Can see that those new officers were really proud, filled with pride. It's really a touching moment watching them get their epaulets affixed with the rank. Then went Holland V to eat and drink beer. Its been really a long time since I last touched alcohol, it's bad for health! AND SERIOUSLY, I HAVEN'T BEEN DRINKING AS MUCH AS BEFORE ALREADY !!! Don't doubt me ok?! heh. Somehow or rather, I don't really like drinking compared to before. Maybe it's because I prefer to drive rather than drink.


IF YOU DRINK, DON'T DRIVE!

I forgot to bring out my keys from camp, so I decided to put up at Jk's place. His family went overseas so it's rather empty now. And here, I'm starting to think of things which happened in the past. Don't know why though, it somehow seemed that something hasn't been done.



There are many things which I want to change. Some times regretting on the stupid stuff that I did, which really brought myself to the state I'm in now. Although it's nothing major but somehow I couldn't seem to let it go.


Boo! Up till now, I still regard you as my best buddy since the poly days. It's not easy to replace that spot. I'm still trying hard, after years, to make it work once again. I'm quite persistent you see. Haha. To me, there are certain things which can't be changed (well, that's for my part). Shall continue to work towards the way of the MnH revival, it's not going to be an easy task but I'll just have to keep trying and trying. Nevertheless, you ought to keep yourself cheered up yea! Remember the broad shoulders theory?! It's for you to pour everything on =)
Share with me, trust me.

So what happens to the pads then?!. (insider joke)

Tracy, it's so sad that you left. But your time is up and I cannot change that fact. I still miss you rather badly just that I don't show that out. Like I said before, it's hard to replace a certain spot that I've dedicated to. I hope you can see this, and maybe talk to me when I'm in my dreams. Well, maybe not talk but appear in my dreams. You no longer jump on my bed in the morning no more.





Yada-yada. The photos will be updated once I've received them. I think it's time to update the photo on the right, I kinda forgotten my password for it. Uh oh ...





Nope, no blue and blurry yet.

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Speedy posting!

Alright, it felt like I haven't updated this blog in quite a while. So here I am, to bring you the latest news about myself.

Right, I've been pretty busy in camp lately due to the some planning of NS stuff. Life has been rather good so far, not much of a problem. Yup, nothing much to say.
I'm going be a sergeant soon! Well, soon enough.

To fangfang if you've been reading my blog, please take care of yourself. I know it's hard but I'm sure he'll recover. Be patient alright? Cheers!

To fatty! You better drink lots of water. WATER PARADE YOURSELF ! for at least 3L for the day =D well, that is if you can take it. hehe. hopefully the fever has already subsided by now and don't scratch yourself yeah? Keep away from those prawns for now. 

To everyone else, well.. good luck in whatever you do. Hah!











and soon the blue and blurry image fades. and blurry images are supposed to be faddy. 

Monday, May 19, 2008

Sorry guys, blame it on the modem.

Alright finally, an update! I was late because of the modem. It short circuited some time ago, so have to get it changed. Days w/o internet was horrible. 

Short updates due to time constraints. Kena 1X BIG ARROW for my current spec course, zz. So depressing, sigh! Had fun during the weekends. Brought fatty to KAP mac, but too bad no colourful balls for her already. 

Ok guys, take care!

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Stupid Ass A Eff

Why they don't allow me to have my long weekends! IRRITATING. I'm so sick and tired of being a trainee. I miss my freedom, I want it back. This is so demoralising! :(

Went to Dbl O yesterday, the place was rather packed with people - like a sea of black. I wonder why my friends want to go there. I brought Vivian along with me, but I left her there to take care of my 2 friends who are wasted. This is so fun. Didn't really drink a lot because I was controlling myself, I hate the puking feel. Took Peizhi's car to sent the "wastees" back, then he sent me home. By then it was around 0530 - 0545hrs, I wasn't noticing though, I was shagged enough.




I will update more when I get back on Sunday yeah? Be patient!





Ok, its you again! Better take care and don't do anything stupid! I hope your entry to SIM will be a success. Enjoy yourself as much as possible for now, take a good break and sweat it out yeah (:









Blue and blurry sounds like some ice cream. But anyway, the image is still not clear. Blue and blurry, where have you gone to.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Yet another Sunday.

Here we go again...

Booked out late because of guard duty on Friday. Sucks!

Saturday,

Reached home at around 4am this morning, went to celebrate Minglong's birthday. Nothing special, just went to his house and eat. Doughnuts were used instead of cake, which I find it more unique because there is a blueberry doughnut which I ate =D
Doughnuts rule the world!
And I'm not done yet, we went to catch a movie at AMK hub. Doomsday, a crap movie. Don't waste your money.

Sunday,
Nothing unusual, went to stock up my stuff at junction 8 and fuck, I forgot to buy watch AGAIN. I think I'll just forget it, wait till I pass out first. Jinkiat drove the car so this time I can relax. Had late lunch at Sakae with Jinkiat and Yingjia, bloated like a pufferfish. Went to Popular after that to check out some magazines, and off we go. Headed home soon enough..


Camwhores - Lina, Huimin, Wan ting



The doughnutty cake


Birthday boy.


Group Photo.





Thanks for confiding in me, I hoped I did make you feel better. Yup, work towards the goal, restoring the pride of m&h. I believe someday this will happen, somehow (:
You shall stay strong and presevere, don't give up yet.
Simply contact me if you felt like giving up already ...

In the meanwhile, take good care of yourself (:









blue and blurry, where have you gone to ...

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Home at its best

Yeah yeah, it's sunday again; time for an update.

Fell sick in camp this week, my throat's bad and my coughing nvr stops. Even until now, I'm still coughing badly. I couldn't pass my SOC on Friday, TO HELL WITH SOC! Fuck! I'm so dead.
A BAD WEEK.
Next week I'm going to die even worse, outfield, deployment, guard duty & confinement -__-
The reason for my confinement is so stupid! I swear I never gonna do it again. Stupid dumbfuck.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Mom left for Ho Chi Min some days back, till 23 Apr. Sister got to drove her car, got banged by another vehicle while on the road. Dad believed him to be associated to some kind of syndicate. Oh well, I do not know how to settle such things moreover I got NS to take care of. 
Went to collect Tracy's ashes from the columbarium(spelt like that?) at Pasir Ris Farmway 2, now she's home (:



Ugh, valerie!


Me behind without valerie knowing


Vivian and me.


Me and zombuddy, Siewkoon


Me, Siewkoon and Ziqing


Ugh, I saw Kat Tan on Saturday @ Cineleisure ... I can't wait to leave that place at that time. Damn ...


Unlucky!