*Time 5:13AM*
Finally I got back home, I am dead tired from driving but it was fun. Met up with 3 of my brothers + lina, wanting and huimin. They're all very "steady" people.6 of us cramped into my humble corolla and we went to Bedok 85 market to have our supper. Really appreciated them, we joked and on the way just keep talking. While driving back it rained somehow so I sent each of them back to their homes, of course the girls get to go home first while the poor driver always get home last! -___- and one more problem is PARKING. I had a hard time finding a parking slot when I can finally go home. Home was so near yet so far, I had to search around for an empty parking lot, and at last found one, quickly parked the vehicle and went home. Upon reaching level 6 of the HDB, I heard my neighbour's clock struck 5 and only did I realised that it's rather early in the morning.
Thanks guys! I'd really appreciate the company although you guys did not know of the true reason. Only one of them knew, we chat while waited for the rest. It's like the Good O' Times again, heart to heart talk although now left only the two of us.
Alright I'm tired, but I also wanna thank my little-darn-devil-daughter-which-I-adore. Thank you so much for your concern, I took care of myself while driving and I did not drink! (:
Thank you people. Today or rather last night was quite depressing, felt very vexed. I should be alright soon,
Thank you once again. I really appreciated it (:
I wasn't really mad at you, all I wanted was your msg when you reach home. I was partially waiting for it while I drive. Just wanted to make sure you reach home safely, and it never came. Of course, you're not obliged to do so.
You got PS in the day and you're pissed . And now you're doing the same thing, how would I feel? Wear my shoes and feel my sole. It's painful.
The whole matter wasn't your fault, I never blamed you.I really wanted to find someone or something to allow me to get my cool back. So I took all the blame, never did I once blamed you.
If only you see this ...
and I hoped you'd understand.
If only ..
Sorry.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Friday, July 20, 2007
fresh air.
*DONE LATER IN THE NIGHT*
SUPERFICIAL HUMAN BEINGS.
I'M BEING ONE MYSELF.
AND IT'S FUCKING TIRING.
I just wanted to breathe some fresh air, who cares what will the ongoing activities be.
Maybe it's true, if I don't say then nobody will understand.
Yeah right, as if it'll bother anyone.
SUPERFICIAL HUMAN BEINGS.
I'M BEING ONE MYSELF.
AND IT'S FUCKING TIRING.
I just wanted to breathe some fresh air, who cares what will the ongoing activities be.
Maybe it's true, if I don't say then nobody will understand.
Yeah right, as if it'll bother anyone.
Piano
*DONE EARLIER IN THE NIGHT*
I love the piano. I love piano pieces, it's so soothing and calming.
At times listening to what you've said, I felt discouraged. At times, I felt encouraged. What is this? Mind games ?
Give me a more obvious answer. I'm so lost.
My blog, my sanctuary, the place where I blog most of my inner thoughts. I'm not good at expressing myself in person except for the things which I hate. I don't trust someone easily, they would be taken away from me eventually. That fear, I pity myself.
At times we need to be selfish, for the sake of our own happiness.
I, am I too kind?
My dear NP gal, just where did you go ?
I love the piano. I love piano pieces, it's so soothing and calming.
At times listening to what you've said, I felt discouraged. At times, I felt encouraged. What is this? Mind games ?
Give me a more obvious answer. I'm so lost.
My blog, my sanctuary, the place where I blog most of my inner thoughts. I'm not good at expressing myself in person except for the things which I hate. I don't trust someone easily, they would be taken away from me eventually. That fear, I pity myself.
At times we need to be selfish, for the sake of our own happiness.
I, am I too kind?
My dear NP gal, just where did you go ?
Another boring day
I've stayed at home straight for 4 days since Monday, I seriously need to go out soon. For tomorrow morning, I shall go for a swim and buy some baking ingredients at the NTUC in J8. Most of the time you cannot find company, so what I'll do is to do things myself and learn from it. Sometimes I just need some company, some care and concern, maybe a little love and recognition? Oh well, sometimes you cant find any of those and all you can depend on, is yourself. You, are your greatest weapon and YOU, are you worst enemy. And one more thing, it's hard to trust, even for little things.
Alright alright, my fault. It's must be me, not others (yeah right..)
It's been some time since I've been really frank about myself to someone, until recently.
That fear of close something taken away so suddenly, it's unimaginable. Having experienced it a couple to three times dynamically, you'd tend to set up a "protective wall" against everyone. Until that special someone comes along with the correct hammer and tools, that hard nutcase of yours will soon reveal it's seed.
Maybe wrong analogy, but yeah some people still get it. Well, the minority of course (:
Alright alright, my fault. It's must be me, not others (yeah right..)
It's been some time since I've been really frank about myself to someone, until recently.
That fear of close something taken away so suddenly, it's unimaginable. Having experienced it a couple to three times dynamically, you'd tend to set up a "protective wall" against everyone. Until that special someone comes along with the correct hammer and tools, that hard nutcase of yours will soon reveal it's seed.
Maybe wrong analogy, but yeah some people still get it. Well, the minority of course (:
Thursday, July 19, 2007
random
Today wasn't really that good. I found out that I've misplaced my passport, up and down I searched around my room. I've already done searching the possible places but I still cant find my passport, just where did I place it? The only thing in my mind now is, perhaps my passport lies with Sembcorp for I cleared my room quite recently and I could accidentally throw my passport away. I am so dumb, oh dear .. I am feeling rather depressed. Sigh!
All I wanted to do is to keep on giving,
and all I want is a little recognition back.
Thanks for giving me that answer I need.
You've set the rope for me to keep going on,
allowing me to reach my final destination,
as time passes by,
hopefully.
I'm glad (:
P.S : But I can't get over my passport still!
All I wanted to do is to keep on giving,
and all I want is a little recognition back.
Thanks for giving me that answer I need.
You've set the rope for me to keep going on,
allowing me to reach my final destination,
as time passes by,
hopefully.
I'm glad (:
P.S : But I can't get over my passport still!
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
Site Revamped!
Alright people, finally got this site a new look. It's a piano skin now, I loved the pianos alot. Used to learn them when I was a little boy, but I gave up somehow. If only someone motivated me to continue then.
Camp was not really that bad, I practically drove throughout the days when I'm in camp for I did not stay till the end. Experienced something not so new, in a not so new place either - in the room behind the yellow door. It's quite a frightful experience though, but I'm not really that scared for that moment.
Did nothing, no posts and all for the 2nd day except to fetch the food committee to collect their food when I was really tired. I practically got not much energy left in me, and driving in that condition made me get agitated easily. Saw some of the NS men coming back, "gathered" and talk. Told their own stories and got the "crowd" entertained. Shortly after, I drove back home that night.
If you're scared, hold me.
If you're not feeling good, share with me.
Whatever it is,
I'll be there..
waiting.
Smile often, for it's beautiful on you.
Camp was not really that bad, I practically drove throughout the days when I'm in camp for I did not stay till the end. Experienced something not so new, in a not so new place either - in the room behind the yellow door. It's quite a frightful experience though, but I'm not really that scared for that moment.
Did nothing, no posts and all for the 2nd day except to fetch the food committee to collect their food when I was really tired. I practically got not much energy left in me, and driving in that condition made me get agitated easily. Saw some of the NS men coming back, "gathered" and talk. Told their own stories and got the "crowd" entertained. Shortly after, I drove back home that night.
If you're scared, hold me.
If you're not feeling good, share with me.
Whatever it is,
I'll be there..
waiting.
Smile often, for it's beautiful on you.
Friday, July 13, 2007
Driving crazy II
Okay, I just got back from driving. I've been driving for 4 hours in total. 2 hours with a short interval of supper and then another 2hours straight of driving. I am so damn tired now, my neck is aching! Driving isn't that fun, it's so tiring that my right foot is aching. Went from one end to the other with my sec school buddy. I'm so glad that he could make it as it was a long story before I started driving. Oh well ...
Went to Jurong/Clementi area and from there went to Changi village for our supper. "Attacked" the highways again, it really links from one place to the other, so convenient (: I broke my current record and set a new one at 140kmh, I think that's the max the car can go. Anyway I do not want to go fast, I just wanted to see it's performance. I'm a safe and responsible driver! Hehe.
Went to Jurong/Clementi area and from there went to Changi village for our supper. "Attacked" the highways again, it really links from one place to the other, so convenient (: I broke my current record and set a new one at 140kmh, I think that's the max the car can go. Anyway I do not want to go fast, I just wanted to see it's performance. I'm a safe and responsible driver! Hehe.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Random thoughts.
Yesterday I got a funny reaction from my mother. It's exactly the same like those you see from cartoons.
I told her I drove at 130kmh last night then she said ok, drive must becareful. Suddenly she shouted, 130kmh!?
The expression on her face then was priceless.
Today, as my grandmother is discharged from hospital so someone has to go and fetch her. I didn't know I'm supposed to drive her back with my aunt and uncle, NOBODY said a thing 'cept for dad, I thought he was just merely asking last night. Until the moment my aunt called, she told me to get down when she calls again and I was like "huh, what do you want me to do then?" She said I'm supposed to drive there, my mom knows about it already. Then she came home and ask me whether I can go anot? C'mon lah, since it's already decided then why ask me. So irritating.
They reached already. I'm off driving.
I told her I drove at 130kmh last night then she said ok, drive must becareful. Suddenly she shouted, 130kmh!?
The expression on her face then was priceless.
Today, as my grandmother is discharged from hospital so someone has to go and fetch her. I didn't know I'm supposed to drive her back with my aunt and uncle, NOBODY said a thing 'cept for dad, I thought he was just merely asking last night. Until the moment my aunt called, she told me to get down when she calls again and I was like "huh, what do you want me to do then?" She said I'm supposed to drive there, my mom knows about it already. Then she came home and ask me whether I can go anot? C'mon lah, since it's already decided then why ask me. So irritating.
They reached already. I'm off driving.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Driving.. A good way to clear your head of thoughts
*TIME 4.49AM*
I just got back from driving, went to alot of places today. The destination points were like this, Ang mo Kio, Kovan, Bishan, Sengkang, Edgefield Plains, East Coast Park, then back to Sengkang, Ang Mo Kio and lastly went to top up fuel at the Shell Station near my house and finally home.
I'm so tired, and I think something must be wrong with my joints. I keep getting aches all over, I'm aging fast. Haha. Think too much perhaps!? (:
I've been thinking while driving, maybe I shouldn't rush things. I'll take it slow, sorry! Sorry for the inconvenience caused.
Well, if you were even here to see, that is.
I know nobody's taking me seriously, everyone is treating me like a joke, but I sincerely apologise to you alright?
This might be another post that's talking to myself! Hahaha.
No one talks to me anyway .. sigh
Can you understand my feelings now? External + internal factors.
Grandmother please be alright!
*Added on 10:55pm*
Places to add- Changi Airport, I've forgotten about it.
I want to drive again, I think tomorrow.
I just got back from driving, went to alot of places today. The destination points were like this, Ang mo Kio, Kovan, Bishan, Sengkang, Edgefield Plains, East Coast Park, then back to Sengkang, Ang Mo Kio and lastly went to top up fuel at the Shell Station near my house and finally home.
I'm so tired, and I think something must be wrong with my joints. I keep getting aches all over, I'm aging fast. Haha. Think too much perhaps!? (:
I've been thinking while driving, maybe I shouldn't rush things. I'll take it slow, sorry! Sorry for the inconvenience caused.
Well, if you were even here to see, that is.
I know nobody's taking me seriously, everyone is treating me like a joke, but I sincerely apologise to you alright?
This might be another post that's talking to myself! Hahaha.
No one talks to me anyway .. sigh
Can you understand my feelings now? External + internal factors.
Grandmother please be alright!
*Added on 10:55pm*
Places to add- Changi Airport, I've forgotten about it.
I want to drive again, I think tomorrow.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Don't treat me like a joke
Life is really funny till this point. It seems that I saw myself in the past, looks like I saw my own mirror image. It's true to the point that it's weird. Dear whoever up in the sky, is this a sign for me to love myself more? Hahaha. Making a fool out of me, I think you did it - whoever is up above.
Don't treat me like a joke.
Don't run away.
It's not about you,
It's about me.
I need to drive, the urge to do it. I cant possibly coop myself at home the whole time.
Yeah, right.
Don't treat me like a joke.
Don't run away.
It's not about you,
It's about me.
I need to drive, the urge to do it. I cant possibly coop myself at home the whole time.
Yeah, right.
...
Of course it'll be better if things go the way I wanted.
But more often than not, things doesn't go the way I wanted.
But more often than not, things doesn't go the way I wanted.
Monday, July 09, 2007
kreJ
Who's that jerk ?
Oh well, nobody! He's just me ..
*Added 3.05am*
Things that you've said, really put me into serious thoughts, throughout the bus ride and even when I reached home, I've been thinking about it. I know you are just kidding, it's not your even your fault, I feel bad when you felt bad. It's about me, thinking on what I've done so far. It's always me. I am so sorry for not treating you nicely.
Like one of my brothers told me, go for it. I know I should really go for it, but now come to think of it, maybe I should wake up my idea. I don't feel like giving up, but it's like fresh flower planted into the cow's dung (which obviously is me!)
Tell me, what should I do? Will you?
Feeling very weird, I am quite lost.
Give me some directions.
Oh well, nobody! He's just me ..
*Added 3.05am*
Things that you've said, really put me into serious thoughts, throughout the bus ride and even when I reached home, I've been thinking about it. I know you are just kidding, it's not your even your fault, I feel bad when you felt bad. It's about me, thinking on what I've done so far. It's always me. I am so sorry for not treating you nicely.
Like one of my brothers told me, go for it. I know I should really go for it, but now come to think of it, maybe I should wake up my idea. I don't feel like giving up, but it's like fresh flower planted into the cow's dung (which obviously is me!)
Tell me, what should I do? Will you?
Feeling very weird, I am quite lost.
Give me some directions.
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Mmmm.. One quite beautiful saturday.
I woke up, it was raining heavily outside this morning. I got the impression that somebody walked in, wanting to close the windows for me but I hurriedly went to close the windows and that somebody walked towards the door and left. Shortly after, my mom knocked, asked me to open the door while I just told her to come in and she said my door's locked. I was rather confused for that moment but the thoughts disappeared when she asked me to go downstairs to take something up.
Went out for my treat and watched transformers yesterday. I did truly enjoyed myself alot, thanks! I'm glad (:
Transformers is a very nice movie. The way the robots transformed into their vehicle self to their robotic self is very cool. The sound effects were good- the extra "boom" when Starscream's jet took off. I recommend it to all people out there although there are some crude jokes which you need to think a little to understand. "Sam's happy times - It's a father and son thing" Hahaha.
Something definitely not good is that my grandmother's been hospitalized. Mom said the cause might have been stroke. I guess when you're old you tend to suffer from illness like that - stroke, cancer, rheumatism etc.
Grandmother, hope you'll get well soon! It's not that I don't care, it's just that I cannot communicate because of language barrier.
Enjoyed your presence all along.
Hopefully I'll win this round. Well, hopefully.
Who knows.
(:
Went out for my treat and watched transformers yesterday. I did truly enjoyed myself alot, thanks! I'm glad (:
Transformers is a very nice movie. The way the robots transformed into their vehicle self to their robotic self is very cool. The sound effects were good- the extra "boom" when Starscream's jet took off. I recommend it to all people out there although there are some crude jokes which you need to think a little to understand. "Sam's happy times - It's a father and son thing" Hahaha.
Something definitely not good is that my grandmother's been hospitalized. Mom said the cause might have been stroke. I guess when you're old you tend to suffer from illness like that - stroke, cancer, rheumatism etc.
Grandmother, hope you'll get well soon! It's not that I don't care, it's just that I cannot communicate because of language barrier.
Enjoyed your presence all along.
Hopefully I'll win this round. Well, hopefully.
Who knows.
(:
Friday, July 06, 2007
Home sweet home!
Just returned from a pub at Outram area to celebrate Nick's birthday, he's dead drunk today. I didn't drink alot, I paced myself. Haha. Nothing much, just celebrated his birthday, I played pool while some sang songs (I can't sing, for god's sake). Then some of them got really high, so they didn't know what they're talking about, UNLIKE me. =Pp
Went to eat prata cause my stomach's growling, and soon I'd returned home shortly. After blogging I'm going to bathe, mind me but my hair's all waxed up.
I'm actually looking forward to meet you tmr, I shall make it worth alright? I don't care if this is a chance for me, but I'll enjoy myself alright. I hope tmr will be quite a memorable day for you (:
Yes, we'll see.
Who knows what will happen, but there shouldn't be anything happening. Nevertheless, I'm really looking forward to it.
Cheers! (:
*That was3-4am post, I didn't really take note of the time*
*Added on 10.24am*
Drove the Yaris to fetch my mom at the Toyota Service Repair Centre near my place. Everything is weird about the car, I didn't like it. The driver seat was too high, the clutch was hard to get. The only thing I liked about it is, it's small, the steering is hard which I liked alot, I don't have to turn alot to get to the point I wanted and it's power (the ability to push the car forward) because of it's size as compared to corolla's. Apparently the already serviced corolla begun to show some problems and guess what, the previous repair did not include the current problem. Why? Because they forgot. Do your checking properly before releasing the car, darn you.
Why am I talking like I own the car? Oh well ..
Pfft~
Went to eat prata cause my stomach's growling, and soon I'd returned home shortly. After blogging I'm going to bathe, mind me but my hair's all waxed up.
I'm actually looking forward to meet you tmr, I shall make it worth alright? I don't care if this is a chance for me, but I'll enjoy myself alright. I hope tmr will be quite a memorable day for you (:
Yes, we'll see.
Who knows what will happen, but there shouldn't be anything happening. Nevertheless, I'm really looking forward to it.
Cheers! (:
*That was3-4am post, I didn't really take note of the time*
*Added on 10.24am*
Drove the Yaris to fetch my mom at the Toyota Service Repair Centre near my place. Everything is weird about the car, I didn't like it. The driver seat was too high, the clutch was hard to get. The only thing I liked about it is, it's small, the steering is hard which I liked alot, I don't have to turn alot to get to the point I wanted and it's power (the ability to push the car forward) because of it's size as compared to corolla's. Apparently the already serviced corolla begun to show some problems and guess what, the previous repair did not include the current problem. Why? Because they forgot. Do your checking properly before releasing the car, darn you.
Why am I talking like I own the car? Oh well ..
Pfft~
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
PICTURES!
Alright people, these are the few pictures I took when I was real bored.
This is the female security guard dog at my working place. She's a beauty.
This is her male counterpart. He gets agitated easily but I'm not really afraid when he barked at me.
Some stupid shot of my Sakae frog. Who's that at the back?
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
RoTTING bad
Howdy people, how's your day today? I'm totally bored with nothing much to do at home so I've decided to give a shot at updating my blog with nothingness.
Yesterday was boring as usual, never get to go out nor get to do anything interesting 'cept for making my room into a "club" like environment with just the speakers -___-
I bet today's gonna be the same, no doubt. Hopefully Jane did bring my Japanese geta to school, I'm arranging her to meet Gaston, who in turn will come and meet me at the bus stop to pass me the "goods" x)
Okay, let's wait awhile longer to see what will happen later in the day. Then I shall update this boring-site-which-nobody-reads again.
Laters!
*Added on 8:52pm*
I am back. I'm so happy today, finally I get to wear the geta. The sound of the wood banging onto each other, that's so cool. Nevertheless, I'm still bored. SOMEONE PLEASE TALK TO ME ONLINE!
For god's sake, TALK TO ME!
Hahaha.
Cheers people! (:
*Added 11:07pm*
Obviously nobody reads this anymore.
Nobody talks to me.
Boohoohoo!
Yesterday was boring as usual, never get to go out nor get to do anything interesting 'cept for making my room into a "club" like environment with just the speakers -___-
I bet today's gonna be the same, no doubt. Hopefully Jane did bring my Japanese geta to school, I'm arranging her to meet Gaston, who in turn will come and meet me at the bus stop to pass me the "goods" x)
Okay, let's wait awhile longer to see what will happen later in the day. Then I shall update this boring-site-which-nobody-reads again.
Laters!
*Added on 8:52pm*
I am back. I'm so happy today, finally I get to wear the geta. The sound of the wood banging onto each other, that's so cool. Nevertheless, I'm still bored. SOMEONE PLEASE TALK TO ME ONLINE!
For god's sake, TALK TO ME!
Hahaha.
Cheers people! (:
*Added 11:07pm*
Obviously nobody reads this anymore.
Nobody talks to me.
Boohoohoo!
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